Some 20 years ago, after leaving my home town of Brooklyn, NY and moving to the state of New Jersey, I was sitting in my apartment in great distress. I had no job, no prospects and no way our of my financial problems.
I was literally at the end of my rope. So much so that I actually got down on my knees and cried out to God, “I give up, I cant do it on my own, I give this situation and my life to you”.
In hind site I realized what a stiff-necked man I was and in some ways I still am. That God had to go to such an extreme of breaking me down to the point where I had no where else to look but up. Even more so that He brought me to a place where I understood that the only way to get out of the mess I was in was to turn to Him!
I had spent my entire life living the Paul Anka song “My Way” I did exactly what I wanted to do when I wanted to do it. I never cared about what others said or thought about me because I knew better than anyone else, including my parents.
I know that this is not an abnormal thing that of kids knowing it all. It has been this way in every generation throughout the ages. But I now know that this is the way of the world and not of God.
By human standards I wasn’t a particularly bad person. I loved my family and my friends very much. I never mugged anyone or broke into anyone’s home to rob them and never stole a car. I never intentionally set out to do harm to anyone. In short, I was mischievous but I wasn’t a felon.
I did however drink a lot and I did a lot of drugs, especially during my 20′s. I believed that as long as I wasn’t hurting anyone else it was no big deal. What I learned was that by hurting myself I was indeed hurting others around me even though it was not my intention to do so.
God had to show me these things by breaking me down. By bringing me to a point in my life where I had no where else to go but to turn to Him. It was not a pleasant thing to go through but it was far better than staying the course.
So my words to anyone who is stubborn as I am are these. If you are here and reading this God is drawing you to Christ. I don’t care who you are or where you are in your life. I don’t care if you are healthy, wealthy and “wise”. I don’t care if you believe you are living the perfect life. Without God we have nothing!
If we just let go and let God. If we just submit to His call to come home to Him. If we just ask for forgiveness and let Him in. He will do totally amazing things in our lives the likes of which we never dreamed possible.
Life in the kingdom of God is one of rest peace, provision and love. It is a life of fellowship with a God who’s love for us goes beyond all human understanding. It is a life of fellowship with brothers and sisters who share that Godly love. It is a truly awesome experience.
My only regret is that I was so stubborn that so much of my life has passed me by where I could have been living this life. But I rejoice that this life is temporal and that I have all of eternity so spend in the presence of my brothers and sisters in Christ and in the presence of our Lord and our God! Amen!
God Bless You All in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.